A Tarot Reading

WOW - I just got this tarot reading for me from a friend by email...Whenever I am feeling lost or overwhelmed I turn to my Tarot cards for help. I hope you don't mind that I did the following reading for you. Someone recently used this spread to do a reading for me and I absolutely love it. I feel that it reinforces that every part of you, every aspect of life can be precious. It is called The Treasure Chest spread.Diamonds (where you shine) 10 Pentacles:- You excel at providing your family with a stable foundation. You are dependable and solid, and not matter what happens, your family know that they can rely on you.This is semi-true, I sometimes get a bit ditsy about the little things, but when something important comes up my family (and my friends) all know that they can count on me no matter what.Pearls (what you know) 7 Swords:- You know how to be alone. You are not afraid of being by yourself. You can depend on yourself, and are resourceful. I am not afraid of being alone, I actually like to be alone at times. Alone time is time for nurturing the soul, loving yourself and growing yourself. I love to be alone with nature.Gold Coins (what you have) Knight of Wands:- You posses creativity and confidence, you are a doer, and have the ability to make even the most boring activity fun and enjoyable.True again, I think the source of my confidence in creativity is that there are no limits or boundaries, noone telling you what is right or wrong in your chosen art. I don't have such confidence in other areas of my life, however, and wish that I did, I have little confidence in expressing the depth of my true feelings, I have little confidence in my patience. I am still growing.Emeralds (who you know) Knight of Cups:- Someone who is emotional, sensitive and giving. Someone who will care for you when you need it, or when you neglect to care for yourself. This would have to be my fiance, although he doesn't understand the depths of my depression, he accepts it and accepts me just as I am. He is always there to look after the kids (including changing nappies), to take them off my hands if necessary, to let me sleep in (in turns of course) and makes my coffee. He tells me constantly how he loves me, how good a mother I am (no matter how much I doubt) and how important I am to my other family and friends.Platinum Chains (what holds you back) Page of Swords:- You can't cut the bonds of self doubt. You must use your head to move forward and to realise where the negativity in your life comes from, then you must use your sword and sever that cord.Self doubt is my biggest obstacle. It always has been and its going to be a long hard road to get passed it I'm sure. I grew up being constantly told that I was not good enough, that my choices were not valid and that I should do as my mother liked - even if it were not relevant or interesting to me.Decision making is my second barrier, from childhood to early adulthood everything was decided for me, everything was as mother wanted or she would make you miserable for disobeying her. I am now very indecisive, sometimes I can make a decision but then find it hard to commit to the decision.The third barrier I have to overcome is goal setting. I can set long term goals, I know what I want from life. I have great difficulty breaking those goals down into manageable chinks so that I can actually achieve them.Don't do everything for your children, give them choices... Guide but do not direct.Sapphires (Where you could shine) Judgement:- it is time to cast off old doubts and be reborn. Rise like the Phoenix from the ashes. Use your experiences to make you stronger, and you will shine like the sun.I have realised recently that I have to rid myself of these old beliefs, they are only holding me back.But how?Quartz Crystals (what you are learning) Empress:- You are learning how to be the Empress; kind, loving, maternal, giving with abundance, but don't forget to give to yourself too. You are re-learning how to be a wonderful mother and loving partner. You are re-learning how to love yourself.I am indeed relearning to love myself. I think I lost myself somewhere over the passed few years. At the start of this relationship I gave up a lot of things, my lifestyle (outdoor activities, camping, rock sports, etc) some friends and my new found spirituality (which I have begun to rediscover). Some of these things I realise that I would've lost over time anyway, some things I wish I still had.I've forgotten how to do things for myself, that I CAN go out and do things for myself, like go rock climbing at an indoor centre for example, I know David wouldn't object, but still somehow I never get around to it...I know I have failings as a mother, my patience has been so limited of late, now that I am not working however, and have taken time out for myself just to be, I am spending time alone with each of my children to rebuild with them.I know I have failings as a partner. I often expect David to know what is wrong, what has upset me, and get angry when he doesn't (I know he shouldn't HAVE to know - I know I'm being unreasonable, but I cannot help it). I know I am not as attentive to David as I should be, as I WANT to be.I have trapped myself in this horrible pattern and I know now is the time to break free.But how?Rubies (who you will soon know) 7 Wands:- You will find someone who is on your side, who will help you fight your battles and give you the courage to fight too.My knight in shining armour? I don't know about this one, but I will keep it in mind and let you know...Unpolished Diamonds (hidden lights) 10 Swords:- You have the ability to see the light at the end of the tunnel. You reach out and embrace the dawn, rather than bemoaning your fate and staying lost in the dark. You help others to see the light too. You protect your loved ones from the troubles of the world, and you take away their pain, and shield them as best you can. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, problem is I can help others to see the light and find their way there, but somehow I get lost along the way, they continue and I get stuck.Oh, this tangled web...