Friends...

Who is a best friend?I haven't had one since high school, and now I often wonder if those I thought were friends ever really were at all.I have few *real* friends, people I can tell anything and know that it is in confidence without saying so - you know, like at school "don't tell anyone that I said this..."I often wonder who I can trust, girls are SO bitchy and gossipy just in general, I so often find myself wondering if you are really my friend or if you just want something to talk to your other *friends* about.I was talking to T about this just yesterday, one of the girls we work with - well, her boyfriend broke up with her to go out with a guy - they are only 17 so she was pretty devastated and all. How would she feel if she knew her *BEST* friend (who also works with us) told everyone at work all about it!?Then there are those who say they tell you everything, yet you know they don't. Is that the worst kind of lie? The "I know I can trust you with every detail of my life, and I say that I tell you everything yet you know that I don't? lie?What a horrible feelingIhungerforrealfemalefriendships.....